TIERRA “TEE” HARRIS.

MONTICELLO, AR-2021

Since I was a kid, I never felt that I was enough. My relationship with my parents and family/friends has always been great. But, the inner me could not see the beautiful person that everyone else saw. I was always told, “You can do anything that you put your mind to!” I didn’t believe that until the day of my college graduation when I walked across the stage to receive a bachelors degree in CIS. I cried like a baby because I truly felt that I could not do it. To me going to college was something that I was “just doing” because my parents said I should. It wasn’t until my 3rd year of college that I found something I loved. I finally got my first real job and learned what it meant to be an adult. 

Fast forward 3 years later, I reunited with my first love and we shared 4 years together. We birthed a beautiful son, and then my love is taken away from us a year and a half later. I reverted back to that young girl and wondered, how am I supposed to pick up and move on with my life with a son that has no idea what is going on? I wake up daily, constantly worrying if I am being the best version of myself that I can be for my son...realizing that this isn’t even a choice! My mind tells me if I don’t, no one else will. 

I have constant thoughts of how hard it is being a single mom, and losing my partner, my person, my first true love. I’ve been trying to find time for myself so that I can maintain balance in all aspects of my life: mentally, spiritually, and physically. Most of these thoughts cross my mind daily and I always come back to the conclusion/realization that evolving and growing is a lifelong process!! Everything that was meant “to break me” I overcame. There have been and always will be tears, frustration, anger, and sadness - that’s a part of life! In the meantime, I will do as my love would always tell me to, “just live a little” and simply enjoy life because tomorrow is not promised.